Gratitude!
Expressing to the Universe that I will follow my intuition and/or the divine message to post 365 days of unconditional & conscious love has opened a door. If you affirm your intentions to The Universe it makes a way. Thank you, for the easy day of good health options; watermelon, water, salad, coffee, 45 minutes of yoga, a 30 minute jog, and a bike ride to the river & back. I am feeling great!
What is #365daysoflove about? I still don’t know. LOL!
Inspiration
Today I am inspired by a Netflix documentary series entitled Wild Wild Country. In this documentary, a group of people, The Rajneesh, commit to living together in peace, love, joy, and liberation. They are viewed as a threat because they are different. They are challenged by locals, who also define themselves as Christians and see The Rajneesh as a Cult; defined by Dictionary.com as:
Cult kəlt/
noun
- a system of religious veneration and devotion directed toward a particular figure or object.
“the cult of St. Olaf”
- a relatively small group of people having religious beliefs or practices regarded by others as strange or sinister.
“a network of Satan-worshiping cults”
| synonyms: |
sect, denomination, group, movement, church, persuasion, body, faction
“a religious cult” |
- a misplaced or excessive admiration for a particular person or thing.
Hmmm? This could be any religion, even Christianity.
Anyway, the Rajneesh build a commune in Oregon and find themselves unwanted by the locals. The locals do some interesting things, including threatening the unarmed Rajneesh with guns and digging through their trash for evidence of wrong doing. Then, the locals accuse The Rajneesh of harassing them. When the Rajneesh fight back, The Rajneesh quickly begin to behave a lot like the locals they are protecting themselves from. This storyline feels quite familiar to me. I think it is a storyline that repeats itself throughout history. The Rajneesh become dangerous and veer off the course of their original mission. The ugly becomes a contagious and dangerous dis-ease.
I liken this storyline to what is currently happening in South Africa. The Natives are taking back the land from whites, as they identify them as their Colonizers. The ugly that the Colonizers bought to the land has become contagious and the climate is dangerous.
How do we get there? You come to the table with your most civil and loving intentions & find yourself knocked off course; standing in a stew of spiteful nonsense, fighting back with the very ethics of the opposition. There must be a better way to manage the attack we feel from the outside?
I am now the Ugly
In January 2017, Trump became the President of the United States. While I truly appreciate his ideology of business/politics the same is not always good and don’t let the media lead you, I recognize his tactics as that of a bully; identify with those you need and later bully them too. I did not vote for Trump because he displays tactics of manipulation, divisiveness, and bullying.
Since he was elected I have slowly become more disgruntled than ever. As an empath I could feel the energy shift. It almost felt as though everyone was on alert. I felt the pain of those that believed they were marginalized. And I felt the energy of those that felt they had won. And strangely, the energies were almost the same. I found myself responding like the people I disagreed with. The ugly had become a contagious and dangerous dis-ease. I do not want to become the ugly.
It is a strange state of being, to watch something unfold, but not know exactly how to combat it outside of the arena it is occurring in. Every human being has a better side. We also have a shadow side. We must learn to embrace both and use them in a manner that displays our best selves, but how?
I am an African-American woman in a country that knows my worth, but is always making an effort to keep me from being aware of it.
Love is…Reconnecting to or strengthening my intuition
I believe most of us want to be much like the original mission of The Rajneesh; love, peace, joy, & liberation. Yet, we have been taught that rules govern and anyone living outside of the rules of the herd is “not right”. These rules often don’t feel good to us, but it is what we have been taught. So, we battle within against what we intuitively know to be right. We opt to follow the rules we have been instructed to understand as right, this idea feels safe. With enough safe decisions, we forget how to follow our intuition over the rules and external voices of the herd.
Meditation reconnects me to my inner voice/intuition. Committing to just 5 days of meditation alone, will bring me face-to-face with unconditional and conscious love. In meditation I can find a deeper connection with spirit, with Mother Earth and God. I can locate my lifeline and feel a connection to all of life.
In meditation, I am reminded that the shift we are experiencing must occur. For far too long, one group of humans has been in power and right now they are fighting tooth and nail to retain that space. They are children dressed up to be men; unwilling to learn or be shown a varied course. The fight is theirs to fight, not mine. From a space of peace, I recognize that I do not need to fight, but I can stand. More importantly, I can put energy on the situation and I can create the coming of the new from the space I reside in. The discomfort is designed to make me move.
Between 2011-2014 the Earth’s natural disasters seemed to be at an all-time high (or at least, the internet allowed us to be aware of the happenings). Intuitively, I kept hearing, when a major disaster occurs, the biggest mistake that people make is trying to get back to the normal that they knew before.
Just let that sit with you for a moment.
Instead what if we tuned in to the energy of disaster and learned to accept it as an energy of renewal. Where do we truly want to be?
So, how does this correlate? All of our governments, worldwide, seem to be going through a major shakeup. The world is going through major political unrest and natural disasters are changing the lands of paradise. The discomfort is designed to make us move and getting back to the old normal is not necessarily the best solution.
Redefine your world!
Now is a great time to go deep within and redefine what my true ideal life should look like. You know, it’s like your home has burned down and the insurance company is paying to rebuild it. Will you ask for the same old home?
Everything is up in the air. There is as much hope as there is discord as there is uncertainty. It is time to make new plans for the new energy coming in. But first I have to be able to see it, conceive of it, define it.
It’s asking myself if I am fighting for the right things. I am assessing if I have achieved the things I want to achieve in this lifetime. I am making certain that when I am screaming about injustice, I have a threshold & a boundary. I will not cross this line and I will not allow you to cross that one.
Redefining my ideal life is about my ability to conceive of me being in that space. That space becomes my goal.
What do I want my home life to look like? What are my physical health goals? What are my mental health goals; concepts of learning & growing in academia and/or career? Who do I want to surround myself with? What are those people like? What do we have in common? How do we support one another? Are we honest with each other? Are we loving, bold, or frail, and fake? Do we share the same values? Are we able to have open and honest conversation? Are we respectful of each others boundaries? Are we respectful of each others wishes? Are we happy when the other achieves a goal? How do I want to attend to my spiritual health? Do I need a new space? Do I need a group? Is there an activity that helps me experience my true spirit; a very special high? How much money do I really want to acquire? Am I truly comfortable with the energy of money? Why am I uncomfortable with the energy of money?
If you are with me on this one, you may know what you do not want, but do you know what you do want?
- Daily meditation; gratitude and a moment to find my quiet space within. Just being quiet and not asking for anything. I’m waiting until I feel that sense of peace that I like. I am reconnecting to me and my intuition. This allows me to find my creativity and my simplicity again. In my quiet space I am able to redefine what I truly want.
- I am relying on daily yoga and/or walking to keep my spirit fluid because this makes me feel most open. It allows me to answer the hardest questions.
- I use Pinterest as my Vision Board. I post things that appeal to me.
- I am simplifying by asking myself, how do the items on my vision boards appeal to the life I truly want. Then, I remove things that do not actually add value or peace to my world, because one thing I know is that I want to minimize.
- Finally, I ask the Universe for assistance in executing what my intuition puts in front of me. I ask to be free of the fear that paralyzes me. What good is hearing/understanding/comprehending my intuition if I am fearful of executing?
When I talk to others, the energy I have tapped into isn’t mine alone. The time is here for redefining ourselves; seeing something fresh and in alignment with our purpose. It is time to try something new in order to break away from the mundane. And it is time to accept that change is upon us and it is good for us. Do you know what you want?
This is day 2/365, I am reconnecting to intuition, viewing my wish list, and redefining my ideal life. I am taking a step forward.
P.S. Watch Wild Wild Country. The conclusion is yours to interpret and the unfolding story is fascinating.
P.P.S. The image featured was painted by Journey Early.
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